All I`ve got

I never needed a plan B

I mean, why would I?

Plan A always worked out perfectly

However

I`m afraid that one day it won`t

And I'll crumble because of it.

But what if it works out?

And everything will be fine

and I'm just overthinking it.

But what if my predictions are correct?

What if the planets and the stars align

in a way that I won't like.

What would happen then?

I`m tired of asking myself

What would have

Could have

And should have

Happened

If…

If I had made that decision differently

If I had listened to my intuition

If I hadn’t been so scared

Of…

I don’t even know of what

Of failing?

Of not being enough?

Of hitting rock bottom?

Haven't I given enough?

You know, I’ve never been a natural

All I do is try

Try

Try

But hey, I`m trying

I`m at least trying

This is me trying.

Szekér Kinga XII. H